Dear Nathalie,
Mommy had one of her very late nights at work again. You asked me, again, today when would I be able to stay home with you all the time. I know you're only five and you don't understand the idea of needing an income, but every time you ask me that I feel so guilty for having to be a working mom.
Yes, it's true, I love what I do. I'm good at my career...that's why I've been doing it for so long. But if it were economically possible, mommy would quit her job in a heart beat and stay home with you.
I grew up with two working parents. I was a daycare kid when I was your age, too. The whole idea of "stay-at-home-moms" seemed so silly to me before I had you. But those weeks...those few precious weeks of vacation I have every year, when I DO get to stay home with you.....they are the best weeks of my life. Not just because I get to spend time with you....that's awesome...but I also get to prepare MEALS for the family...I'm able to keep house.....a concept that is so foreign to a lot of women these days.
I had it in my head that I would always be a career woman. "I can be super-mom: work, help at school functions, have an orderly house, make great meals......" HA! I feel like I'm barely holding on sometimes. My schedule is so completely out of whack compared to the people that are most important in my life and I feel like I'm missing so much.
So, dear Nathalie, when you ask me if I can just stay home with you all the time....please know that my heart says YESSSSSSS! But the bills say no. I wish that, at minimum, I could have a normal work schedule so that life would seem somewhat more in balance. At present I can't change that....maybe by the time you read this particular letter in my series to you, I will have figured something else out....But please know that all my hard work is so that I can provide a decent life for you and the rest of our little family. And know that I love you SO much.
Love,
Mom
Mommy had one of her very late nights at work again. You asked me, again, today when would I be able to stay home with you all the time. I know you're only five and you don't understand the idea of needing an income, but every time you ask me that I feel so guilty for having to be a working mom.
Yes, it's true, I love what I do. I'm good at my career...that's why I've been doing it for so long. But if it were economically possible, mommy would quit her job in a heart beat and stay home with you.
I grew up with two working parents. I was a daycare kid when I was your age, too. The whole idea of "stay-at-home-moms" seemed so silly to me before I had you. But those weeks...those few precious weeks of vacation I have every year, when I DO get to stay home with you.....they are the best weeks of my life. Not just because I get to spend time with you....that's awesome...but I also get to prepare MEALS for the family...I'm able to keep house.....a concept that is so foreign to a lot of women these days.
I had it in my head that I would always be a career woman. "I can be super-mom: work, help at school functions, have an orderly house, make great meals......" HA! I feel like I'm barely holding on sometimes. My schedule is so completely out of whack compared to the people that are most important in my life and I feel like I'm missing so much.
So, dear Nathalie, when you ask me if I can just stay home with you all the time....please know that my heart says YESSSSSSS! But the bills say no. I wish that, at minimum, I could have a normal work schedule so that life would seem somewhat more in balance. At present I can't change that....maybe by the time you read this particular letter in my series to you, I will have figured something else out....But please know that all my hard work is so that I can provide a decent life for you and the rest of our little family. And know that I love you SO much.
Love,
Mom
Very nice, Jen. She's a lucky girl to have you as her Mom.
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